Are You Happy?

Seeing you doing just fine like nothing happen makes me wonder,
You smile like it was nothing.
You act like it was nothing.

Sometimes it makes me wonder,
Are you happy? are you having fun? is that for real?
Or pretend to be?
Or just really comfortable?
Or is it really nothing for you?

My brain refuse to work normally.
It won't analyze the situasion.
It's not that I'm afraid it will be wrong, but I'm afraid if it isn't.
Because it's never wrong so far.

Right now, I don't think I even can handle my own mind.

Right now, just okay is enough.
Even I know it's okay for not being okay.
But, right now, it's okay.
I'm okay.
Just okay.
And that's enough.
For now.