You Were Everything I Shouldn't Have Wanted But I Did.

You need me.
I don't know if you loved me, but you need me.

You needed an island, I was that island.
And that's not what I wanted.
Because all I really wanted was for you to want me.
not need me.
want me
and love me.
for who I was as a person, not for what I did for you and how I made you feel.
like your problems and your issues and your anxieties and your addictions and your past experiences were all okay.

You used me as a barrier between yourself and the things about yourself that you wanted to hide from.

But you ended up burying me too.

Clearly, I know why i stay,
It's because of how i feel for you.
But what i'm afraid of is, part of me believe that you stay because of how i make you feel about yourself.

I think i fall in love with the unexpected person at the most unexpected time.

You were everything I shouldn't have wanted but I did.