I'll Stand By No More

Waiting around for something to never happen only promotes the stagnation of life, progression, it halts the future and what it has in store.

What i so badly wanted you to see is that i am the girl who will cherish any time spent with you, simply because it is a chance to be near you. I am the girl who will make you homemade chicken noodle soup from scratch when you're not feeling well. I am the girl who will believe you when you say you want to "take things slow" to give us the chance at having something real, and enjoy what we have now. But I'm also the girl who will stand up for herself instead of being walked on.

Accepting your absence as a reality but not letting my feeling for you rot me from inside out. I don't like the feeling of endless questions. I need answer, answer you can't give, or maybe refused to give. I guess no answer is answer enough. I am not important enough to warrant a simple, quick text saying "you're not up for hanging out?". I am not important enough to stick around and wonder where this is going, because the answer is clearly a resounding "nowhere". It echoes off the walls built by the silence you have placed between us so many weeks ago now.

I'm done waiting for whatever it is, convincing myself that somewhere, even in the far back of your mind, is a thought of me that will ring through as if someone tapped a fingernail on crystal glass. A clear sound to ripple to the front of your consciousness and remind you I'm standing by, but i'll stand by no more.