For God sake what was I thinking that time. 4 years doing it, paper work every single day. 2 pages minimum every day. Report, analysis, diagnosis, practicum and many more. Lack of sleep, lack of free time, running out money for practicum, and many more.
But that's the sacrifice I have to do to get to this point in my life right now.
And all of that was worth it every single blood and tears.
People like to say
"oh, so you are a psychology student, so you can read people. I have to be careful around you, but please try to read me"
"ah you must be good at understanding people"
and many more like that
Believe me, studying psychology wasn’t like that at all. Not even close.
Believe me, studying psychology wasn’t like that at all. Not even close.
But luckily,
I realized something when I was in my second years.
If I can turn back the time to the time when I was decided to choose my major. I will definitely choose psychology, again, without a second thought.
Psychology actually taught me a lot of things.
It's not like you think in your head right now.
Psychology didn't taught me to understand people better.
Psychology taught me to understand myself better.
Like one of it is when I found out that writing about what I feel can makes me feel better.
I am suck at expressing my emotion, instead of expressing it or saying it, I prefer to writing it.
I am suck at expressing my emotion, instead of expressing it or saying it, I prefer to writing it.
It's not like writing a diary or something. I didn't do it all the time every day. Just when it necessary, to makes my chest feel lighter.
Because I can't say it so I write it. For me it's easier to write it than to say it.
But it doesn't mean I can't say what I feel, I do can, it's just I prefer writing it. Because I can control my language and my emotion better.
When I angry, I tend to be mean. Not like cursing or something, but worse, I say the truth not in a nice way. Amd people tend to can’t accept the truth, moreover when you don’t said it nicely.
Everyone has a different way to make themselves feel better. In my case, it's writing.
Psychology taught me to taking care of myself, because no one will gonna do that for you except yourself.
But, you can ask for help. a pro or just a friend.
And clearly it doesn't need psychology to care with other human being.
Because you don't need psychology to have empathy and sympathy.
That's why I hate it every time people say
"of course you understand, that's your field, psychology, you understand how to treat people better"
No shit. you need psychology degree just to treat people better. Really?!!
No, I'm not. I didn't learn that from psychology.
I treat you good because I've been taught to treat people good. My parents taught me. Not psychology.
If you treat me bad and I keep treat you good, it doesn't mean I'm weak.
It means I clearly can control my emotion and you don't.
But if you keep treating me like shit, I can treat you worse.
That's what I learn from psychology, you can defense yourself, you have to defense yourself, protect yourself. No one will going to do it for you.
I'm a nice person until you push me to my end line.
Psychology didn't taught me to care about people better.
I care to people because I thought it's nice when someone care about you.
Because that's what I feel when someone care about me. It feels nice.
As simple as that.
but, again, if I care and you keep became a pain in the ass.
I can be a pain in the ass too.
There is a time I can stop caring, at all, if you keep wasting it, if you don't deserve it.
There is a time I can stop caring, at all, if you keep wasting it, if you don't deserve it.
The act of caring doesn't need a psychology degree.
It just need a willingness.
As simple as that.
