I have been on my own long enough to know that I don't need anyone but myself. I promise myself that I wouldn't let anyone get close to me again unless they made me feel that being with them was better for me than being by myself. So please, don't try to fix what someone else broke. I can and will fix it on my own. So, I don't need you. I'm doing just fine on my own. I'm fine before you and will be just fine during you and after you. But, I do want you.
I am an independent person and I am proud to say so. I love being by myself. To me, nothing is better than a good book on a rainy day or spending a Saturday night in bed watching Netflix. I have never been the type of girl who fantasizes about a relationship like the one in The Notebook.
Don't promise me that you will never hurt me. The truth is when you love someone, they're going to hurt you in a lot of different ways, probably more than once or twice. People do disappointment, even the person we love. So, just don't. I don't need your promises. And trust is not something that I give freely, you have to earn it.
I am not the type of person who believes in fate. I'm a skeptic, a realist. I am absolutely not the type of girl who believes in love, or soul mates, or grand romantic gesture similar to those fashioned by Ted Mosby in How I Met Your Mother.
I don't use the L word lightly. Love, that is not a word I hand out like candy. When I say it I mean it. So it will take me a little time to use that word with you. I will feel it long before I say it to you. You will feel it long before I say it to you. For the longest time, I didn't even believe in love, I know I am capable of loving someone, it just takes my heart a little longer to convince my brain that its okay to love someone. So, just know that when I get a little freaked out when you talk about maybe feeling that way for me, it's not because I don't want to love you or because I don't want you to love me. I just take it seriously and won't say it until I'm sure I mean it with every ounce of my being. Until I'm sure that I believe in it again, that love does exist.
Please don't expect too much from me.
I am afraid to open up
Be patient with me, I might be a little broken.
I am a healing human being.
I've been hurt before and not just a little hurt.
I'll tend to push you away.
I don't let people in, not that easy at least.
Tend to hide my feeling or even trying to run.
I have never been good et expression and my past only make it harder.
What I'm trying to say is, I'm in.
I know my wall is high, but I am willing to let you break them.
Let's give it a try.
