Sunday, March 1, 2020

Why I'm not interested in work for my government

If you are a small minded and close-minded person, please don't read this. If you work for the government don't read this too.

My friend asks me why I don't want to work for the government. She asks if it's because I didn't think the people who work there are smart.
I said "no. That's not the reason"

To work for the government you don't need to be only smart or clever, the most important thing is you need to be CAPABLE.
Most of my government employees are not capable of doing their job. Most of my government employees want to work for my government because of money. Small works big money.
Big allowance (a lot of allowances that I don't think they need it. Most of the time, I'm questioning the purpose of the allowance, like "wth is this for?!"), even bigger than your salary sometimes.
They guarantee your pension, more "good network", chance to break the rule easier (because you work for the government, most of them feel and think like they own the country), easier to get "pocket" money, used their "jabatan" untuk kepentingan pribadi, padahal "jabatan" nya ga tinggi cuma B aja, tapi gaya tengil selangit, and many more.
Maklumin aja, masih banyak penduduk negara saya yang mentalnya masih mental dijajah. Dulu jaman negara saya dijajah yang dianggap sugih dan dipandang ya pegawai pemerintahan. Makanya pegawai pemerintahan seringnya ngerasa punya power, padahal sih ga ada powernya juga, orang cuma staff biasa, gaya nya aja selangit berasa pejabat pemerintahan.
Point is, you get more profit and advantage when you work for the government.
That's why it's an Indonesian dream job (most of them).

Let's put an example, my current governor.
Is he stupid? No(?)
He has a good degree. But you can't say that someone who has a degree is smart or clever.
Like they said "never confuse education with intelligence"
But I can sure you that he is not that stupid.
Is he capable of his job? OF COURSE NOT.
You can ask other people if you don't believe me.
He failed to prevent the city floods, this year is one of the worst for the past 15 years. What did he say? "It's because the water, the rainfall is so high, nothing we can do about it. And children are happy playing in the flood after all".
When we check further, we knew that the water pump isn't working. And he didn't do dredging.
Is he fit for the job? OF COURSE NOT.
But he is not stupid(?).

Next, my minister of health. When we ask his plan to prevent coronavirus or facing it, he said: "just enjoy it".
Is he stupid? OF COURSE NOT. He is one of the best doctors in Indonesia.
Is he fit for the job? Let's see now when we know that there are around 20 people in an indication that have the virus.

Almost everyone in Indonesia know, when you are dealing with a government don't give them the right way or regulation, give them more unnecessary money then they will do it faster, and you will be their priority.
(Maksudnya kalo lo mau ngapa-ngapain cepet dipemerintahan ya nyogok aja lewat jalan belakang atau lewat calo atau cari orang dalem. Ga perduli lo ngantri dan ngikutin regulasi dari jam 5 pagi, yang diduluin adalah kenalan mereka atau yang ngasih duit ke mereka)

For me, work in government is not only about can you or can you not. It is not only as simple as smart or stupid or clever.
It's about are you capable or are you not. It's about are you fit for the job or are you not. It's about did you have the knowledge for your position or did you not.

That's the reason why a big and settle company so specific about the qualification of its employees.
Education background, expertise background, experience background, knowledge background.
They don't just "hired any people".

They don't care how much money you can give them in the selection test period (ga bisa nyogok maksudnya), who is your father, your uncle, or your family. You are not capable, then you are not the person for the job.
They won't invest in a person who is not capable.
Wasting their money on a person that is not capable.
Send them to a school or training for nothing.
They will ask something in return, not just "doing usual regular work" after you back.
They will demand you to make something different after your learning. That's why they invest in you. They will demand you to make a program or a project that is useful and impactful for the company.
That's the challenge. You don't get it freely.

For me, it's more challenging.
It pushes me to be the best among the best.
Not the best among okay.

Like they said "it's better to be okay among the best than to be the best among okay"

Don't get me wrong.
Are all of the government employees like that?
OF COURSE NOT
There are a lot of good people too and do their job right. But you know, conformity theory. They match their behavior with their environment and the people around them so they can fit in and survive.
The thing is, when you eat like them, walk like them, talk like them, and think like them, you BE like them.
I will get so stress working with that kind of people. Once I have project related to the government and work with the employee I get so frustrated and stress in a bad way. Not because I cant catch up with the good work, but they keep dragging me to work like them. Yes. You read it right. Dragging.
So I was like "nope"

For me, the government environment is not a healthy environment to work and be the best.
My government didn't impress me enough and didn't attractive enough for me to want to work for them. Small work big money didn't attractive enough. Big unnecessary allowance didn't attractive enough.

That's why I don't want it.

Saturday, August 17, 2019

Hope For The Best, Prepare For The Worst

People keep saying that we should hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
But, I don't think it works that way.
How dare you to hope for the best but didn't do your best.

I don't hope for the best.
I do the best.
Never hope for the best but for sure always prepare for the worst.

We make our own best.
We make the best from what we've got.
Not hope for the best from whatever it is.

I learn that hope gets you nowhere.
I learn that hope gets you nothing.
I learn that act gives you something.
I learn that act gets you somewhere.
Act makes you move.
Hope only makes you wonder.
Hope only makes you keep dreaming.

As an anxious and realistic person, I always have plan.
For everything. Literally, everything.
I'm planning everything.
My plan always has a backup plan, even my backup plan has a backup plan. I bite my nails every time I plan for something.
That's how anxious I am.
I am aware that something can go not the way we plan it, that's why we need a backup plan.
That's how realistic I am.
That's how I prepare for the worst.

I plan my life 10 years ago.
I get where I am now because I plan it well and do well.
No, do best.
Everything is going as I plan it so far.
I missed some points of the plan, I change some points of the plan, because I need to adapt with the situation, but my life still on the track just the way I want it.

I have a good job, in a good company. One of the best and the biggest in London.
When most of my friend is dreaming to work for the government (for some people it's cool, but for me it's lame (sorry no offense) for me, I always thought it's kinda too easy).
I always dream to work in multinational company since I was in junior high school.
Then here I am. Just the way I plan it.

I have a good job.
I have a good team.
I have good friends.
I have good family.

Plan and acts get somewhere.
It gets me to be where I am now.
But hope gets me nothing.

People can said that hope is what makes you alive, it keeps you alive.
No, for me, hope keeps you wonder.

You can keep hope for the best or do the best, make the best from what you have.
I never hope for the best because when your plan goes wrong you won't be too disappointed.
And you will handle it well, because you already prepare for the worst.

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

To You, The Person I Love

It took me a long time to find you
Even longer to finally realized that I want you, that I want to be with you, that I love you.
It's not easy for me to say those words.
But when I said it, I really mean it.
Thank you for making me believe.
That it does exist.

You're not always doing everything right.
Neither do I.
But thank you for always giving your best.
Thank you for never stop trying.

Thank you for your countless efforts since day one.
Thank you for every second you spent with me.
Thank you for being there when nobody was.
Thank you for staying up late with me, listening to my problems and pain, and taking them as your own.

Thank you for never hesitate to support me.
Even on the days where I am on the verge of giving up, ready to throw everything in the towel, your boundless humor somehow passes me a life-raft.
It is as if every chuckle, every chortle from our conversation can replace every tear, every crack of my battered heart.

Thank you for believing in me, even when I don't believe in myself.
Thank you for telling me that I can do it, even while I'm convincing myself that I can't.
Thank you for expecting great things of me, because truthfully, sometimes you expect more greatness out of me than I do.

Thank you for encouraging me to make the change I need in my life.
You are always there to listen, of course, but you know how to get me to think about the future.
You get me to think about how I can actually solve problems, and not just bitch about them.

Thank you for the little things.
Thank you for reminding me of my value in the tiny, everyday moments.

Thank you for bringing hope to my hopelessness, bringing life to my lifelessness, and joy to my joylessness.
Thank you for keeping me going, but at the same time make sure that I have enough rest so I can enjoy the ride.

The most important is, thank you for staying and stick with me when it's hard, in the hard time, even when I push you away really hard.

Thank you for being my friend, my partner, my lover, and my everything.
I love you in everyway.

Monday, May 13, 2019

Superhero

I met a superhero
I lost her
I want her back
She did things to me that no one else could
And I miss that
Don't wanna talk about it
I was so wrong about it
Can't do a thing about it now
'Cause they say if you love her let her go
And they say if it’s meant to be you’ll know
I met a superhero
I lost her
I want her back
She did things to me that no one else could
And I miss that
Damn, I miss that

Sunday, May 12, 2019

Bukan Olehmu

Tidak semua yang menghilang ingin ditemukan.

Kau bilang kau kenal aku.
Seharusnya kau tau, saat aku menghilang mengambil jarak terjauh tandanya aku tak ingin bertemu.
Seharusnya kau tau, saat aku tidak menjawab panggilanmu tandanya aku tak ingin berbincang.

Bukankah aku sudah pernah bilang padamu.
Jangan cari aku.

Aku mungkin ingin ditemukan,
Tapi bukan olehmu.